Brand New Day

I know when I’m excited.

Found myself waking up earlier than the alarm, and realised that I was a tad too early. Because i was excited.

1. About to have shepherding.
2. Its 25th October. They’re backkkk!
3. Hmm. I guess I was hungry?

#One. Woke up. I realised I couldn’t find my phone anywhere on the bed. Searched, searched. Put on my specs. Felt around the bed again. I could almost imagine myself telling the others I lost my phone at home again. Strangely, I reached down an odd corner and felt it. Clocked at: 6:55?!

Though, shepherding was postponed. Since long I haven’t took the time to sit down at the breakfast table to have a good, slow, heartwarming breakfast. Of course I couldn’t, was either madrushing for school or I woke up at lunch time, so lunch became a brunch. Plain-old, but satisfying breakfast. I thought about things. I talked to God. I watched a video.. And from the only English words I could identify with, well here I go again, oh no–Always makes me reflect about repentance. For what I do and have repented for, this line makes me never want to mean it.

#Two. I dreamed I was at the airport. Must have missed them so much.
#Three. I always looked forward to breakfast if I was aware there was something nice at home. Before I fell asleep last night my stomach was grumbling/growling, so I guess it puts on the weight of excitement to get me out of bed.

I shall look forward to today(:

OME..?

Well. That’s something to think about. Its our new cg movement, if you’re wondering.

A lot of learnings/revelations today. God, you’re with me! I’m glad I took the long, exhaustive bus ride to school. And doing so with God. It makes me feel so much better, so much more ready to face the comings of school activities today, whatever’s about to tower over us. (I had no idea what we were going to do, I lost the timetable.) Because I was patient and sensitive, I heard God. He taught me this: For love.

The reason behind anything and everything in this world, it must be for love, right? From the beginnings: God loved us, so created us. God loved us, so died for us. God loved us, so we felt His love and wanted to reciprocate. Though ours could never measure, for His love, we serve Him. For His love, we serve His people. Into the details, we love Him, so we read the bible and we talk to him and we grow with His people. I guess that was what God was trying to get to me all along. I cannot read the bible without a love for God. I cannot take out Quiet Time with Him just because it was an obligation, or a routine.

I had a breakthrough. God gave me a heart of love so that I could follow His guidance! Man, thanks.

I want to thank God for my lovely cg. It might be young, but I could see it ferociously growing. I thank God for the busy yet no less servants of God. (XianGuang, MengXin and Qiya) I thank God for the young, yet open hearts (ChenYing, LeXin, XiaLi) I thank God for the faithful, zealous supporters, and I will grow with you, learn from you, serve with you (ShouYi, JunCheng, WeiLing) I love you all(:

Work, Me!

I’m reaching for your heart
You hold my life in your hand
Drawing me closer to you I feel your power renew

This is how God sailed me through, last week. I’m gonna keep this song close to heart, dear God!(:

And while I took a run today I experienced freedom,(F-R-E-E-D-O-M!) and I found: I am free from intellectual excruciation, from penning and penning my hands off to save myself. I really am about to start on the list I planned prayerfully with God! Shall: serve God, serve people, gear up my word knowledge, gear up my wisdom. And save for camp.

And I shall dust off the settled layer on my books, and read them. Read them! I couldn’t even keep count of the books I have gotten the past couple of years and only touch the almost the first chapters of them. Sad, but true.

Meanwhile, prayer requests? Practicing intercession and not-too-formal way of speech to God. Afterall a friend. Afterall a buddy. Afterall a know-me. Why the formalities, lah! My dears, please text me, mail me, call me, tell me- what the troubles you need a prayer for. (I LOVE LOVE YOU YJCEA5)
Matthew 18:20 For when two or three come together in my name, there I am with them.

Hmm, something I really wanted to sneak in before I get off : D

I can’t believe myself either.

Pick-me-up

Ahh~ ‘ve seen the light.
Never steppin’ out of the zone,
anytime soon.

Snorts. I feel I might (since always) resort to such tendencies to lose my insanity to certain (possibly miniscule) issues, just cause of the feel-good juices they collect for you, you feel that? That gracefully God picked me up today out of my bed, without grumps, and I gladly took the fun and honour of attaining knowledge, and applying it by pen and paper. Perhaps it was right before I decided to jump into the fire and drown myself in it. Thanks, thanks for always being on time.

Because more often that not it always happens when I leave my thoughts by the side of a churning whirlpool, and without attending to it with proper tools I guess these loose, incompetent thoughts become led into the swirling unsuspectingly. This time I attended to my thoughts, but I fed into it. Then I found feeding a waste of resources, because there were too many loopholes already, which they could occur to me as chances. I failed to find conviction in these chances, or I didn’t attempt to even. Then I had no answers or solutions or plans I would usually prepare for myself that I could climb back up, but a tinsy bit of faith that was so strong, strong enough that God used it to pick me up today.
Ephesians 2:8″For by grace we are saved through faith, and that not of ourselves, it is the gift of God” Ah, even more I am undeserving, but THANKYOU GOD, for Saving Grace.

Be my Everything

And everything You hold in Your hand

And everything You hold in Your hand
Still You make time for me

So thankful God, of how you let my mind work things and issues out. Although pondering sessions do make my brows crease and my jaws clenched and my palms sweat.. nah. I do aspire to be a thinker.

I can never imagine or picture how God ever talks to us individually, keeps us all covered. Never misses out on one. Never attends to the other last. How?

Probs as a human I can never understand, but I sure can vouch for that. God pulled me through so well yesterday, and He fills me in today.

“SO. MANY. QUESTIONS. (I’m missing a word here.)
JESUS. IS. THE. ANSWER.”
I could see from the many sore and wet faces this statement must have gone right through each of these people and split each of their hearts open. Wow, it could only touch my heart for all those who put together something so simple, yet so meaningful. That could answer anyone’s questions, anyone’s doubts, anyone’s queries.

And I chanced upon this-
“life is just full of questions…
…without the correct answers.”
Dear friend, now you know. I’m glad you know.

Though all the joy from reaping God’s successes from this probably-the-best ess, I was quite fearful, of all feelings. Fear that I don’t step up to His standards. No wonder the look of August told me to take hold of responsibilty.

Filled my Cup

Feels too taxing, yet I enjoy it. This week (though its only Wednesday) would be celebratory for a breakthrough, the first time I’m pulling my strings so readily even though I feel already physically taut. I find myself enjoying a busy tiresome would-have-been-awful week. Not meaning I actually found joy in workloads, but God made me delight in doing so. I have in fact stretched my focus span and sacrificed some time for sleep, but at least I complete my tasks within the day.

Drains my physical state, I know so. I’m barely awake by the time I reach school. God thankfully fills my cup, and I stay close to Him that I even manage to stay awake and last throughout the day. And squeeze little naps throughout school hours. This cup I want to size up to contain more, though, I would very much love for it to overflow much more : D

August is a frightening sight. Looms with such intimidation, yet it stares me blankly in the face, like I have to do something about it. I do, I have to do something, many things about it. I need to embrace myself. Guide me, fill me, change me, use me. So make me a sparkling clean vessel(:

Come Home Running

Come Home Running- Chris Tomlin

Oh heart of mine why must you stray?
From One so fair you run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame

Oh heart of mine come back home
You’ve been too long out on your own
And He’s been there all along
Watching for you down the road

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus and He understands
He is the answer you are looking for
So come home running just as you are

Oh child of God so dearly loved
And ransomed by the saviour’s blood
Called by name, daughter and son
Wrapped in the robe of righteousness

21st July

Sweet Felise,
Happy Merry Wonderful Sixteenth! I really am thankful that I have you and that I can see you grow a year older once again. Greatest honours. Anyways I shan’t be pouring out my heart here, as you would see real soon (i.e., tomorrow.) I want you to continue growing beautifully in the Lord’s eyes, and be the MightyLady you have as a girl always dreamt to be.

Tale as old as time
True as it can be
Barely even friends
Then somebody bends
Unexpectedly
Just a little change
Small to say the least
Both a little scared
Neither one prepared
Beauty and the Beast

Ever just the same
Ever a surprise
Ever as before
Ever just as sure
As the sun will rise

Tale as old as time
Tune as old as song
Bittersweet and strange
Finding you can change
Learning you were wrong
Certain as the sun
Rising in the east
Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the Beast

Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the Beast

Something to remember(:

These people I dearly love,

These people I dearly miss.

I must be crazed! Why should I miss these guys. I might see you almost everyday if not weekly, but

I love you so
And I miss you so
And I want you to know
I’d never want you to go! : D

My beautiful Jesslyn. I should think the first mate from DHS that brought me to her house, and tried to make me swim with her, and taught me how rice and mayonnaise were a good combination. Well, it was(: And whom I’d always treasure as a food companion, because you eat so much yet you call me a pig. And our trips to Made With Love!

My ever elegant Felise. This is a rare sight, really : D Constantly checking whether she should smile with her teeth or with her mouth closed, and knows she has awesome MickeyMouse ears so she has a special way of tying up her hair so these ears wouldn’t stick out, and tries to maintain her blog with picture-posts, yet kinda failing to. Always keeps me reminded of what she loves, what she enjoys, what she treasures, what she keeps, what touches her heart(:

I miss you two dopes(: